In preparation for tomorrow I have read "The Couples Guide to In Vitro Fertilization" pretty much cover to cover. I ordered it off of Amazon on Wednesday and was given an estimated delivery date of the 31st. It arrived two days ago, and I devoured it like a hungry animal. As with so many things IF related, I was shocked at how much I already knew. I probably would have been fine without the book, but for anyone else facing this scary possibility it is a good read.
So now I am just plain scared. Scared that my eggs stink, scared of putting lots of drugs/hormones in my body, scared of going postal on someone at work and getting fired, scared of it not working, scared of spending all of that money and not having a child to show for it, scared that I will continue to grow more bitter and angry and distant from anyone who has a family, scared.....scared......scared! I pray that our appointment tomorrow is helpful and brings me some much needed hope.