I am a lunatic

I really hope that after a few weeks I stop worrying so much and can enjoy this pregnancy a little bit.  This last week I went to see my PCP to have my thyroid checked as Mary Shomon suggests in her book.  My TSH was already up to a 7, presumably from my little embies sucking the hormone out of me.  As of February I was holding strong at 2.6, so this discovery was very alarming.  She immediately increased my dosage to .150 per day.  I hope it's enough.  I called my OB/GYN the next day to ask about my blood pressure medication and the new Synthroid dose.  The nurse I spoke with said that my doc was OK with everything I was taking and looked forward to seeing me when I was released from the RE.  I thought for sure she would want to see me early since I am high risk.  Guess not.  So now all I can do is wait 15 days until our ultrasound and pray that there will be one or two healthy heartbeats.  I've got nothing to go on but some cramps, sore boobs and a lot of faith.  Oh, and I have allowed myself to pee on two sticks since our beta last Monday.  Both positive, of course.  I need to go buy some more....